Author:Paul Gilmartin

Working With Sexually Violent Predators: Renee G-M

The 40 year-old public administrator talks about “losing her humanity” being assigned to work on a criminal defense unit on behalf of sexually violent predators and the anxiety, panic and breakdowns that followed.   She also talks about her chaotic and abusive upbringing which included her father molesting her brother, domestic violence and her coping by becoming a rescuer.

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Neal Brennan

The writer and director of Inside Amy Schumer, co-creator of Chapelle’s Show and standup comic (3 Mics coming soon on Netflix) talks about being one of ten kids raised by a violent alcoholic father and his struggles today with trusting his feelings and needs and dealing with his anger especially with partners.  He also talks about his relationship with Dave Chapelle and the conflicts and emotions he experienced when Dave decided to stop doing the show.

Neal’s standup special 3 Mics debuts Jan 17th on Netflix
Follow Neal on Twitter @NealBrennan

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Male Sex Abuse Survivor Websites

 

Male Survivor web sites 

Here is an excellent list of organizations that comes from MaleSurvivor.org, a group committed to preventing, healing, and eliminating all forms of sexual victimization of boys and men through support, treatment, research, education, advocacy, and activism.

1in6 – offers a wealth of information and resources on its website, including an online helpline and a lending library, for men who have experienced unwanted or abusive childhood sexual experiences and those who care about them. Their site is for men at various stages of seeking information and help, including those who don’t see themselves as “survivors” or their experiences as “abuse.” 1in6 also provides trainings for therapists and other professionals.
www.1in6.org

The Gatehouse is a community-based agency in the west end of Toronto which offers a wide range of services for victims of child abuse and their families — notably peer-facilitated support groups for men sexually abused as boys.
www.thegatehouse.org

Gay Men’s Domestic Violence Project – 1 in 4 Gay Men Experience Domestic Violence. Gay Men’s Domestic Violence Project is a grassroots, non-profit organization founded by a gay male survivor of domestic violence and developed through the strength, contributions and participation of the community. Gay Men’s Domestic Violence Project supports victims and survivors through education, advocacy and direct services.
www.gmdvp.org

John Howard Society – Supporting Adult Men – Male Adult Survivors of Abuse, Substance Abuse, Harm Reduction, Domestic Violence and Anger Management.
www.johnhowardtor.on.ca 

Male Survivors of Sexual Assault
 – Sessions are free and confidential at the Sexual Assault Crisis Center, 1 Dock St., Suite 320, Stamford, Conn.
Call 203-348-9346 or 24-hour hotline, 203-329-2929
www.stamfordadvocate.com/default/article/ 

Male Survivors Sexual Abuse & Male Rape Survivors Support
http://www.aest.org.uk/survivors/male/

Men Thriving – a member’s only bulletin board for those over 21 years old – requires registration and adherence to strict rules of conduct – connect and share with other males survivors of child abuse
www.menthriving.org

The Men’s Project, based in Ottawa ON, offers a wide range of individual and group services for men, including men who’ve been sexually abused. www.themensproject.ca

The Silence to Hope Project – focus on assisting male sexual abuse survivors who have been sexually victimized by representative of the Catholic Church in this part of South Western Ontario
www.rcec.london.on.ca/abuse/SilenceHopeHealing.htm

The Victims Resource Center provides a wide range of services to men, women and children who are victims of crime. These services include a 24-hour hotline, support groups, counseling and advocacy for victims. VRC also provides numerous educational programs for students of all ages, professionals and community groups. The Victims Resource Center is private, confidential and it’s services are free. If you or someone you know is a victim of crime, VRC can help. We guide clients toward the path of healing.
www.vrcnepa.org/index.php

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Why Am I A Mess? My Parents Loved Me – Amanda Bloom

The 30 year-old freelance journalist and Pilates teacher doesn’t have anything dramatic to point to in her life, yet she has struggled to find her voice in life with bad relationships, eating disorders, depression, body dysmorphia, and intense fears of rejection and feeling excluded.  Paul and Amanda peel back the layers to try to find out what’s underneath.

To learn more about Amanda, go to www.AmandaBloom.com
Follow her on Twitter @AmandaJBloom

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Punk Rock, Trauma & EMDR – Dr Stephen Dansiger

At 16 he was playing drums at CBGB and Max’s Kansas City as the punk scene exploded. After destroying his career (Pianosaurus, King Missile) he got sober. The PsyD & MFT explains his extensive work with treating trauma victims (especially those with addictions) by using EMDR. He talks about the difficulty people have in calling what happened to them “trauma” and why the label isn’t important.  He shares his personal experiences and insights about bullying, Buddhism, self-sabotage, spirituality, depression and what being a “good person” means to him.

Dr. Dansiger can be found at www.drdansiger.com

Check out this new book Clinical Dharma

Follow him on Twitter @DrDansiger

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Transferring Frequent Flyer Miles to The Podcast

I really want to start recording people outside of America but need financial help to make it happen.   Transferring frequent flyer miles would be a big, big help as airfare is pretty expensive.

There are three major airline alliances I belong to that allow you to transfer them.  Transfer is the term most use since I am not a non-profit.  When it’s a non-profit they usually call it donating and if you’re buying miles to give to someone they call that gifting miles.

You can transfer miles to the podcast by logging into the website of the airline that contains the miles you want to transfer from.  If you’re not registered on their website yet you might have to do that.  Having a FF account doesn’t automatically register you on their website. (you might also be able to do all of this over the phone).

It’s really simple and straight forward once you’re logged in.  This is all the info you need.

My Name:Paul Gilmartin

My Frequent Flyer #  (I’ve listed them below for each alliance)

Number of Miles You’re Transferring: (some have per year maximums)

My email address:  dogpictures@mac.com

I don’t think it matters if your miles are from another airline as long as both our accounts are within the same alliance.

1.  OneWorld alliance partners (American, British Airways, Air Berlin, Qantas, Air Japan, Iberia, and Finnair)

American is the OneWorld alliance member I have a FF# with.  It’s FNB7526 

The link to transfer miles to my American account is https://buymiles.americanairlines.com/en/share/info

2. SkyTeam alliance partners (Aeroflot, Aerolineas Argentinas, AeroMexico, Air Europa, Air France, Alitalia, China Airlines, China Eastern, China Southern, Czech Airlines, Delta, Garuda Indonesia, Kenya Airways, KLM, Korean Air, Middle Eastern Airlines, Saudia, Tarom, Vietnam Airlines and Xiamen Airlines)

  My FF# is with Delta and it’s 2287664086   

The link to transfer miles to my Delta account is https://www.delta.com/buygftxfer/displayTransferMiles.action

3. StarAlliance partners (Aegean Airlines, Air Canada, Air China, Air India, Air New Zealand, ANA, Austrian, Avianca, Avianca in Brazil, Brussels, Copa, Lufthansa, SAS, Singapore Airlines, THAI, Turkish, United)

My FF# is with United and it’s CL331372

The link to transfer miles to my United account is here https://buymiles.mileageplus.com/mileage-plus/en-US/transfer

Thank you so much, it really help!

Paul

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Glamorously Dying: Ex-Model Nikki DuBose

The 31 year-old ex-model (Vogue, Vanity Fair) discusses surviving incest by her mother (who was also an alcoholic with BiPolar and DID aka Multiple Personality Disorder) and a lifetime of battling eating disorders (binging, bulimia, anorexia), depression, anxiety, psychosis, Body Dysmorphic Disorder, alcoholism and drug and sex addiction. She reflects on the physical and emotional bottom that finally made her walk away from modeling and seek help, ironically as her emaciated body was more desirable than ever in the industry.

Follow Nikki on Twitter @TheNikkiDubose

Buy her new book Washed Away: From Darkness to Light

Buy it also on Kindle Washed Away: From Darkness to Light – Kindle Version

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Mini Ep – Producers of HBO’s Every Brilliant Thing

Fenton Bailey and Randy Barbato have produced and/or directed some of Paul’s favorite documentaries, including Mapplethorpe: Look At The Pictures, 101 Rent Boys and Monica in Black & White. They sit down with Paul to talk about their newest film, Every Brilliant Thing which debuts on HBO Dec 26th and tackles the subject of finding joy in life’s little things when we’re surrounded by darkness.  Paul also talks to them about their days as struggling artists in the East Village during the beginning of the AIDS crisis and what draws them to subjects who have been vilified or marginalized by society.   Fenton and Randy also produce Ru Paul’s Drag Race and talk about why they love drag queens.

Follow Randy on Twitter @RandyBarbato

Follow Fenton on Twitter @FBailey

For info on Every Brilliant Thing click here

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Inside the Mind of a 27 year-old with BiPolar II by Hannah Blum

 You are coasting along a straight path, then you struggle to get up that hill. The pain is almost a high. In a moment you have no energy, another too much. You feel like you are about to break, but you don’t stop, you know you have to keep running…

There are nights that turn into dawn in what seems like an instant. From reorganizing my closet to writing in my journal for hours, there are moments your mind is running so fast it is almost painful. You close your eyes, but your eyelids jolt, begging you to open.

So what do I do… 

Learning to harness my thoughts hours before sleep and avoiding stimulation. It works. It fails. A few solid nights of sleep is better than none.

Never content.

If God had bipolar, He would not have created the Earth in seven days. He would still be in the creative process. The day I graduated from the college, all I could think was “You can do better! You have to do more, Hannah!” Nothing is ever good enough, and relaxing while patting yourself on the back is nearly impossible. Being content in my mind is one step from slipping off the balance beam.

So what do I do… 

I breathe more often, and I breathe deeper. I have added exercise of mind and body like yoga.

Emotions run deep.

I hear a song and feel the pain inside the singer’s voice. I smell a flower and can feel its growth. I am sensitive to other people’s pain and hurt, to the point it keeps me up for nights. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night crying so hard I cannot breathe. I laugh as hard as I cry, I hurt as hard as I love.

So what do I do… 

I turn my pain into art by writing, drawing and creating to express these emotions.  Exercise gives me a healthy release.

Treading Water.

Every day my eyes open, and I have to tell myself to do everything I can to keep my head above water. I am one slip from falling to the bottom on a daily basis. Some days are harder than others, but I refuse to drown.

So what do I do… 

I keep moving forward. I keep active. I do not talk about my “struggle” often. I volunteer to help others outside of myself.

The lows are beyond explanation.

You are screaming at the top of your lungs but no one can hear you. It is not a headache, it is a cloud in your head that makes it almost impossible to see. You have no energy to speak. You are empty. You are numb. The light at the end of the tunnel seems so far.

So what do I do… 

Again, I turn these moments into some form of art. I set a goal for myself every day, and hold myself to it. I remind myself that tomorrow is a brand new day.

a self-portrait of the author with the words: Broken Mirror

The picture above is a picture from my journal days before I was hospitalized in 2010.  I have never shared it with anyone until now. Sending love to all my mental health warriors. You are bold. You are brave. You are brilliant. 

Follow this journey on Halfway 2 Hannah

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