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Sexual Confusion – Kira

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Tracy Irvine

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Scar Tissue by Paul Gilmartin

Scar Tissue


I’m sitting here at my favorite coffee place wondering why I didn’t wear looser pants.  My junk is swollen.  Not with pleasure; with bruising and stitches and a Band-Aid.

I had a vasectomy yesterday and like many of the twelve operations I’ve had, they were more complicated than expected.   The doctor told my wife when he finished he felt like he needed a drink.

I had to be put under general anesthetic.  Two years ago, the doctor tried to use a local while I was awake but because of some previous operations there was too much scar …

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Everyone Must Be Thinking How Wonderful I Am: Guest blog by Melodie Ayres

I hate to share feelings unnecessarily, but maybe I should open up a little bit more about one of the greater reasons why I started this project: loneliness. I am so lonely I can hardly stand it. For the time being, I’ve moved past my desire for a significant other, and am solely focusing on the need for friendship. I’ve moved around so much in my life that I have no “core” group of friends. I go through phases of really making an effort to invite people places and/or forcing myself to participate in social gatherings, in an attempt to …

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Hospitals, Self-Harm and Other Subjects: A guest blog by Jamie Casbon

Here’s a little trigger warning: depression, suicide, self-harm, that business. It’s how I roll.   Also,  I’m  trans male, this happened years before I transitioned. I considered myself female at the time and realising I was male was a gradual process that began about 4 yrs ago. My hospitalisation didn’t have anything to do with my gender identity.

This story starts the beginning of second semester in undergrad. I had just come back from an un-fun Christmas visit in Texas, the location of one of the worst times in my life. It wasn’t Texas’ fault, really, just bad timing. In …

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Come See Paul Speak

March 25th at Lassen Community College is Susanville, CA.  There will be a screening of the California PBS documentary “A New State of Mind” followed by some speakers, one of whom will be Paul.   The event is from 5:30-8:30.  Admission is free and reservations aren’t necessary, but if you want them call 530-257-3864 or email    The event will be in Middleton Hall on campus….

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Mental Health after Disaster: A Missed Opportunity in Bangladesh – A Guest Blog by M. Sophia Newman

It was the end of April. Police had stopped transportation on the busy road leading to Savar; a stream of people walked along the hot, dusty road. We were all going to the same place: the site of the former Rana Plaza factory. Days before, on April 24, 2013, it had collapsed with over 3500 workers inside. Now, six days later, the rescue operation had dwindled to the recovery of the 1,116 bodies in the wreckage. Nonetheless, onlookers streamed to the site. Some protested or brought donations. Others just came to witness the worst industrial disaster in the history of …

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