hi everyone i just wanted to say hi and let you know a little about myself
at the moment i keep getting angry and irratble for no reason and im always arguing with my partner, i was hospitalised in 2006 with depression and a failed suicide attempt i did get better but in the last year i feel totally angry and annoyed at the slightest thing i cant keep going on like this as i will lose my partner and new baby girl as well ,
i was phsyically and mentally abused by my older brother who would beat me up ona daily basis and my dad would do this aswell ,and my mum would do nothing about this.
i have a frayed relationship with my family now and dont have any empathy for anyone not intentionally but i come across that way when me and my partner argue i will say some horrible things and storm off then i wont talk things through with her, i was brought up not to show my feelings and was always being told to shut up or i was stupid or i deserved a beaten from my dad and brother there a things that are still vivid to me like when i was tied up and hung from a tree by my older brother and beaten up and left for hours this way and daily things like been hit with bricks, golfclubs or having my head rammed against walls and when i told my parents they did nothing and all i got was another beating so i clammed up for years another thing i remember is when i was ten and was to be home by 8pm i came home at about 8.30 and my mum smacked me in the face with a metal dog leash i still have the scar on my lip and i think all this is eventually catching up with me again,
i defo need to talk to some one but i dont know how as being a guy it aint easy i need a little help here so i hope someone on here has been through similiar things and can point me in the right direction.
am sorry to all that read this for the long rant but i hope i find some help on here.