I started writing a list of things to copy out longhand everyday. I was going to write on a 8.5x11 sheet of paper, but I found myself waiting in the car with my Mead notebook that I always carry around that is 7.5x9.75, and I figured the smaller size would make it easier to complete the list!
I split it up into 3 categories,  motivating fears/remorse,  monthly accomplishments based on my desired life accomplishments,  reminders and exercises to maintain daily focus hour by hour or minute by minute
I will not write  desired life accomplishments here, because I am ashamed
of how grandiose they sound given that I am prone to sleeping the day away and mindlessly surfing the internet and taking advantage from everyone and everything in my life to just coast by.
My untethered grandiosity is dangerous
, because daydreaming of accomplishments gives me a mental boost, in lieu of actually doing work to make those accomplishments real. So I will keep my desired life accomplishments on the down-low until I have earned the right to hate myself less for daring to dream.
In fact to the end of all my listed s I wrote after them "Reality not Grandiosity"
So this is what I have for  & , this is more verbose than what I actually wrote, because exactly as I wrote them they would be unclear
"Close eyes, imagine remorse at age of 71, wishing to go back 30 years and live life better and try harder"
"Close eyes, imagine path I will walk all day today, and like a giant string of pearls on that path, there are floating blue spheres along the way, where I get a dose of clarity as I pass through them"
"Feeling of dread as I am fired from place of employment and my financial responsibility to my family is in tatters"
"Close eyes, imagine path I will walk all day today, and like a giant string of pearls on that path, there are a few floating red spheres along the way, where I get a dose of determination as I pass through them, determination to "up-shift" my working energy level and give an effort and pace that take me past my usual comfort zone for a set period of time, so I expand my effort capability through practice."
"My daughter crying at age of 25, because heart full of uncertainty of future success and full of disappointment from lack of opportunity, because I failed in my responsibility to financially provide and emotionally and spiritually support."
[ One note, some of these images are pretty intense, and I have felt so ashamed that visualizing intense images didn't immediately make me burst into permanently sustained action. That isn't the point, and that isn't realistic. There is no perfect motivation, not being willing to forgive yourself for imperfect willpower is exactly equivalent to settling for a reduced level of effectiveness, because to be maximally effective, you have to treat yourself lovingly and compassionately and carefully measure out reward and punishment.