Welcome. You don't have to feel alone anymore. If there's a group of people who understand you, it's people like us.
Addictions are not hopeless if you're willing to work towards a solution. Most people aren't motivated to do that until they've caused some serious wreckage or shame. So I would turn your recent episode into a positive and seek help. 12 step meetings don't cost a dime and they change lives. You might find help at one for sex and love addiction. Here is the national website for one. You should be able to find local meetings from there, assuming you don't live in the total boonies.
Don't give up hope. This could be a great beginning of learning a new way to live with your feelings. Because that's what makes us do addictive behavior. We can't stand how we're feeling.
Anyway, here's the website. http://www.slaafws.org/meetings
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