I am so glad I found this podcast and forum. Where do I start? I'm a 27 year old (girl) woman with severe depression and a history of self-destructive behavior. Currently I'm unemployed (thanks, recession), totally broke, with horrible credit, and living at home again. I'm totally numb right now, have feelings of being out of control, and my depression is manifesting itself through apathy, and an eating disorder (I was bulimic a few years ago, but now I simply can't bring myself to eat at all).
The really sucky part is that I am genuinely popular when I'm in the mood to be, I'm funny, pretty, and intelligent. I've just been through so many things in my life (abuse, rape, and being held hostage by 3 men at gun-point), that it's left me broken and filled with hatred for my every breath and other people.
I'm also genetically predisposed to mental illness.
*All of the therapy I've had over the past 7 years has made me VERY candid and filterless, so if that bothers any of you, I'm sorry (not really).
I know I'm a mess.
Hi, I'm Aerin