Ok, so prior to Cymbalta, my doctor put me on Zoloft. That made me totally numb and I stopped eating. Then he put me on Wellbutrin XL. That didn't work for the depression, but it did aid in smoking cessation. Then I was on a combination of Zoloft and Wellbutrin XL, and that left me very numb with no sex drive. I was still depressed, but I was able to function. Also, it quieted the suicidal thoughts for a while. After a year though, my depression got worse and I gained 45 pounds.
My doctor discontinued those meds and put me on Lexapro. After three days on that, I began having the worst panic attacks. I almost ended up in the hospital. It was ghastly. I was taken off of that and given Cymbalta. Ah, Cymbalta.
That was great, for about 6 months. I wasn't happy (I've honestly never been happy), but I wasn't numb or unhappy. I had ENERGY! I was able to go to work and school, and be "normal". I was inspired to be creative again! Then after 6 months, poof! Gone was the energy, bye-bye empathy and relative almost happiness. It just went away! Not only was I depressed again, I was worse than before. And I was still on the meds. I complained to my psychiatrist that the meds weren't working anymore, but he kept me on them. After a year and a half longer, I told him that I refused to take them, because 1) They weren't working and 2) without insurance, they cost almost $200 a bottle.
Furthermore, the side effects are awful. If I forgot to take them for one day, I'd faint, shake, feel nauseous, and lose my vision (for a split second, but that split second almost caused me to fall down an escalator at the airport, and stairs on numerous occasions).
Currently, I'm not on meds, because I can't afford them (I'm unemployed). I really don't know what to do with myself at this point. I really don't. Changing my diet to raw vegan actually made a monumental difference in my energy levels, but it is expensive to keep that up, so I can't do it right now. I dunno.
