Hinged on a maybe - repressed memories of CSA...or not

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Re: Hinged on a maybe - repressed memories of CSA...or not

Postby rogitgarg4411 » January 17th, 2017, 8:25 pm

I don't know about you, but my anxiety tells me (metaphorically, but very real-like) that I will die if I take a chance.
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Re: Hinged on a maybe - repressed memories of CSA...or not

Postby conversion&converse » April 5th, 2017, 7:00 pm

Holy everlasting fuck do I relate to this.

I just had a session with my therapist where I spent the last fifteen minutes asking her if I'm crazy. If this is a real thing that happens to actual people. Can a person really reach middle-age and start to discover CSA is part of their history? Because I think it's happening to me.

I'm probably going to start a whole new thread based on my own experiences but I just had to reply hear too. It's been a while since your initial posting. But if you're still reading this...I feel this so much. Thank you so much for posting and I'm grateful I got to see it today. I hope that things have gotten clearer for you, if not better.

Take care
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Re: Hinged on a maybe - repressed memories of CSA...or not

Postby Eljefetacoma » May 17th, 2017, 8:09 am

Hi there. I'll tell you that it doesn't ever feel like you have enough information. Even though I'm pretty sure I know the extent of the acts i still wonder. Ny gf is finally talking about something her dad did and she's terrified that more will surface. It either will or it wont, but the most important thing is that we keep talking about it. That we keep being honest with iurselvesand honor our feelings.

The truth is we may never know the extent of the abuse. What we can do is listen to our bodies, name our feelings, and protect ourselves from people who've hurt us.

Much love. This shit ain't easy
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Re: Hinged on a maybe - repressed memories of CSA...or not

Postby Bioluminescence » July 25th, 2017, 5:37 pm

Thanks very much, you guys. I find it so surreal myself, especially with no solid memories. But then again...does anyone want that kind of memory? But then again again, how do you move forward without processing it somehow?

@conversion&converse Yes, I think you can. I was listening to Trauma Recovery University https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_pxd6gjX2Dd5amM_uboiRA and one of the women said she recovered memories of her abuse only after she was married. So it seems pretty common for memories to pop up willy nilly. I've heard that traumatic memories aren't like normal memories (although this isn't from an article so take it with a pinch of salt) and they don't behave the same. I wish you all the best in reaching some peace of mind.

@Eljefetacoma This is very true and very good advice. I know a few fellow survivors and every talk we have about it is like a balm. It's hard to think that I might not ever know everything (or anything), but the more people I talk to on and offline, the more perspective I get. I'm still emotionally decapitated and out of sync with my body, but at least I know it now. That's the first step.

Chin up, guys.
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