by dare i say it » December 31st, 2011, 12:25 am
Great points, all of them. I especially like what you said about how the human brain is "wired." There's a lot of recent research into the idea that even the small-scale architecture of the brain can change. New neuronal pathways can be formed, old ones pruned. Have you seen those studies where they do a brain scan (usually fMRI or something like that) on depressed patients before and after treatment?
I don't know how I feel about the suggestion that there are things under my direct control that could repair whatever has gone wrong in my brain. There's definitely a lot of hope there, but also a ton of pressure. Also, outside of this forum, there isn't a whole lot of sympathy for me and what I've gone through. Saying that it's in my hands to overcome my problems almost feels like I'm saying that it's my fault that I feel this way in the first place. Hmmm, yeah, I don't care for that idea. And I don't buy it either. Maybe it doesn't matter whose fault it is. Maybe it just happens sometimes despite everyone's best intentions. (Okay, Dan, time to be the change you wish to see in the world.)
To anyone out there who's suffered with depression, or anxiety, or addiction, or anything else that weighs heavily on your mind or your heart: I am so, so sorry that you've had to go through so much pain and difficulty in your life. You have my deepest, most heartfelt sympathy and you always will. I would never tell you to "stop feeling sorry for yourself." I would never tell you that you should be over this by now. I won't minimize what you've been through, because I've been through something like it and I have some idea what it feels like.
Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.