I have spent a lot of time identifying with form. More than I ever want to again. I feel like a lot of the anger I carried was preventing me from feeling depressed, although I still remember being numb most of the time. Going into some type of therapy, I am not sure how I should assess the questions that I am being asked. Today was the initial session and I am recognizing depression and don't want to be consumed by it. I want discipline and goals. Things are becoming more apparent and scary and I don't want any false memories to get in the way. Today I will finish reading a book and start another. Also if anyone is pleasantly viewing my activity on the shared network which I am currently posting on, it feels really uncomfortable just wondering what must drive that, and I hope you never have to understand on a personal level what I am talking about. Now please go fuck yourself.