Podcast Episodes

03/30/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

Polyamory – Daisy & Cory

Daisy (with Cory for support) shares about her emotionally absent parents, Taiwanese culture, her anxiety, need to control, fear of making mistakes, struggling to find a sense of self and the imprint left on her by pleasing her emotionally withdrawn/critical mother at any cost. They share about the specifics of their polyamorous relationship and agreements/boundaries vs open ones and monogamous ones. Daisy talks about the struggle of being a jealous person in a poly partnership and her need for Cory’s validation sometimes being at odds with her desire to have freedom to explore love with other people.

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03/23/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

Workaholism & Anxiety – Jordan Harbinger

The hilarious, self-depreciating podcaster (Jordan Harbinger Show) and ex-lawyer opens up about a recent professional crisis that left him with extraordinary anxiety, insomnia and panic attacks. He talks about often feeling like a fraud, (also known as imposter syndrome), workaholism and difficulty in finding who he is outside of his work.

 

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03/16/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

My Brain Hates Me – Jessie Dean Altman

The writer (Lady Parts, The Onion) and dog walker shares about the lifelong battle she has had with her brain and emotions including: Intrusive thoughts, OCD, treatment-resistant depression, procrastination, self-judgment, and anger. She shares how REBT was a game changer for helping her cope.

 

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03/09/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

The Devil & James Bond – Michael Cannan

Paul’s support group friend, recovering heroin addict and author shares about his upbringing on the Isle of Mann (UK) and the shame and anxiety he felt about secrets in his family and within himself. He opens up about his psychosis that convinced him that not only was he the devil he was also James Bond. He touches on his battles with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, codependency, religious delusions and grappling with the idea of what it means to be a man.

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03/02/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

CC Sheffield aka “Daisy” – Fame, Wealth & Abuse

Originally recorded while speaking under the pseudonym “Daisy” to protect her from her abusive ex-fiancee, CC, a successful model, DJ and actress describes the abusive relationship she struggled to leave with a wealthy, powerful and manipulative drug addict/alcoholic who had turned increasingly violent and controlling. She talks about the emotionally difficult Mormon household she ran from at 17 to find herself sleeping in her car on the streets of LA, surviving a rape and using music to express her feelings of powerlessness and rage. She opens up about the therapist and support group that helped her leave the abuse and gain clarity on the dynamics of domestic abuse.

 

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02/16/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

Horror & Beauty – Witnesses to a Shooting

Paul is joined by two support group friends, Jonathan & Mukunda, to talk about their experience 3 weeks earlier when a shooting victim stumbled into their meeting and began bleeding out at their feet. Jonathan and Mukunda, both sober and ex-criminals, talk about how they were able to respond differently today than they would have when they were gangbangers.

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02/09/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

Female Sex Addiction – Erica Garza

The Salon contributor and author of Getting Off: One Woman’s Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction shares about her sex addiction, which began at age 12 after discovering masturbation as a way of soothing her anxiety and not having to deal with her feelings but over time escalated into riskier and more addictive behavior which she eventually sought help for. She shares about the odd relationship shame and pleasure have for her when acting out and how today she can have sexual experiences that are actually intimate and freeing.

 

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02/02/2018 In Podcast Episodes By Paul Gilmartin

The Dark Grip of OCD – Dr. Jenny Yip

She battled OCD as a child but when she gave birth to twins it gripped her again despite being a trained psychologist who specializes in…yes…OCD. A great episode about the power fear, dark thoughts and shame in fueling OCD but also the power of getting help. She tearfully recalls her obsessive monitoring of her newborns despite being exhausted; being gripped by fear, almost certainty of their imminent deaths if she left their side. Dr Yip shares about her postpartum OCD and OCD in general, how it can be treated, how loved ones can be supported without enabling them and the pressure on young mothers to “be perfect” in the eyes of other young mothers.

 

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