Guest Blog by listener Jill: Dealing with the Beast

Coming out of an overwhelming depression is like swimming up from the

deep end of the pool with heavy weights attached to your body. You

aren’t sure if you will make it all the way up or survive the journey

at all. You tell yourself, “This too shall pass,” while your

Depression says, “Yes, but I will come again. And again and again.

I’m an addiction you cannot beat.” You consider this fact and wonder

if you can keep surviving these spells or if you want to keep fighting

this continuous battle. Each time, it gets a little worse. You are a

little older and a little less likely to beat it. That’s what

Depression tells you.

You wonder how long it will take for your dogs, family and friends to

get over your passing and start fantasizing a new happy blonde wife

for your husband. “Make sure she doesn’t have depression,” I tell

Gary.

The crazy thing is you know things aren’t that bad in your life. You

are just having some kind of chemical pressure in your brain. It’s

pressing on your will to live. It exhausts you, drains you and tries

to coax you into ending it all, like a cartoon devil on your shoulder.

I am emerging from another bout. I don’t feel victorious yet, but the

fact that I’m still here means I won.

Yeah, a little dark, but you can take it!

😉

Hope you are feeling well and beating the beast!